2003-11-04 - 1:52 a.m.
i'm so stressed out lately, and it's beginning to come at me in physical forms. the headaches are back with a vengence and my tongue is doing that weird molting thing it does when stress levels are peaking. i'm so afraid that i might lose my scholarship by the smallest margin. i know its nearing the end of the semester and i get like this around the same time every semester, but i just feel like such a failure here. i'm not well adjusted, i hate the few friends that i've made, and the only time i leave campus is to go to walmart or watch my winner friends get wasted to the maximum capacity. and i know that things won't be the same back home, but i just want to spend time with my family and see the familiar faces of those i love and love me back.
every day here is more disheartening than the last.
