2003-10-21 - 5:40 a.m.
things are lacking here. i've fallen behind on my reading again. that's not the problem. i know i can catch up easily. it's just that things that were once so interesting to me hardly hold my attention for more than a few minutes now.
i find myself constantly perplexed, scratching my head with this nervous energy. i'm always looking over someone's shoulder. i'm always waiting for the next conversation, the next glorious "it". but i keep getting disappointed, and i can't determine if i'm setting the bar too high or if it's really so deviod of social capital here.
