2002-11-18 - 9:11 p.m.
not too long ago i was complaining about this. now, i'm drowning in a pool of mediocrity. i shouldn't have to be screening phone calls or conjuring up lies to avoid this.
yes, this is awkward. no, i shouldn't have let this happen.
just let me disappear back into nothing. i'd much rather stare at the floor and let thoughts of what passed leave me feeling lonely or upset than deal with this fucking insanity.
be careful what you wish for. those ancient chinese proverbs couldn't be more accurate.
drug dealers and burn outs...please fuck off already.
