2002-09-15 - 4:17 p.m.
the water poured over our bodies and eased my mind. a single touch reverses any logical thought process, and i can't sleep. this was all i wanted for so long, and now the tables have turned. i no longer have this clean cut picture in my mind of the way things are supposed to be. now that i'm here, it all seems so foriegn to me. it's really a shame that i would let a series of events, or people, make me question my self worth. things are hazy now and there is no sight of any danger approaching in the distance, but i'm still waiting for someone to come and kick me in the ass again because these things never last.
it's not paranoia, it's perception. this isn't imaginary, it's fact.
